It gets hard when your thoughts are constantly under seige.
I know that in Christ I am more than a conqueror. Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world.
I am more than an overcomer because I am a child of the King! The Most High God!
In my weakness, He is my strength!
The declarations pour down like rain and give life to the dried out areas of my spirit….
I must keep meditating on these declarations day and night until every word permeates my soul and I begin to walk boldly in the provision God lays before me.
The reason for my angst? Well yesterday I handed in my second assignment folder for my teacher training. When I handed in my first assignment folder last term, it was a bit of a disaster. You can read about it here. Even though I made the necessary changes, by putting God back on the throne of my heart, taking more advice from my tutors and following my course plan more diligently…what do you know? I’m still being harassed by thoughts of failure, not being good enough, not passing this segment of my training, not becoming qualified at all, the negativity is unrelenting…..
Why Lord? Why?
I’m beginning to understand that the closer we come to a breakthrough in our lives, the more the adversary will try and come for the fruits of our labour in Christ. I need to take what I know to be true of God’s promises and use it as a holy shield to guard my heart and mind. Actually as I write this, God is whispering to my spirit that I am in a spiritual battle right now and I need to feast upon these following scriptures to fight back!! Hallelujah Lord!!
Ephesians 6:10-18
“Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might. Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;”
Philippians 4:6-8
“Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.”
2 Corinthians 10:3-6
“For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh: (For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;) Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ; And having in a readiness to revenge all disobedience, when your obedience is fulfilled.”
My God is such an on time and faithful God!! Already I feel the burdens beginning to lift as I feast on the sweet nectar of His all powerful word.
Chains are being loosed and strongholds destroyed as my God reminds me that nothing He has ordained for my life can be taking away from me. NOTHING. He opens doors NO MAN can shut. His favor has been poured out upon me like rain. I have nothing to fear, He has gone before me and made my crooked path straight. I have done all that I can physically do in the natural. King Jesus, for His name’s sake, will go forth and do what only He can do in the spirit so I can continue to bring all the glory, honour and praise to His name!!
Hallelujah Father!!