I really don’t know where to start. You have been so very good to me and yet so often, I feel as though I am failing you.
I don’t defend Your name as I should. I don’t speak against what is not of You. I feel like a coward.
Almost daily, I hear your name called out in vain. My soul cries out in distress and yet my mouth says nothing to rebuke the mouth from where the blasphemy was spoken.
Today, a Muslim work colleague used my classroom, to bow down and pray to a god I don’t believe in. As I sat there marking books, she prayed. It lasted mere minutes. My spirit was deeply troubled yet my mouth uttered not one word in challenge. I am at a loss for what to do.
I am a coward.
I am scared because I don’t want to shun or alienate – ( I did that to my childrens father and he has run so far away from Jesus, I wonder if he’ll ever turn back) and yet I can not stand by and let my God be completely disrespected and my spirit grieved in this way. My God deserves more.
Lord help me to be bold and to speak Your truth in love. Empower and protect me Lord. You are my portion forever.