2014 has been a tough year. Really tough. It seemed that as one situation hit and I came to terms with it, braced myself and pushed forward another would come and hit me square in the stomach, winding me and leaving me doubled over in seeming defeat again.
Thank God for Jesus is all I can say because there were times I really didn’t think I could go on. It just got too hard and ‘looked’ too pointless.
Landing my ‘dream job’, then having to give it up. Ongoing health issues, ongoing navigation of single parenthood and striving to build an amicable and loving relationship with the father of my children, whilst guarding my bruised, battered, hurting heart. It. Has. Been. A. Minefield. And quite frankly it’s tiring. I just want to consistently walk in that joy unspeakable that only my God can bring.
Lord you spoke to my spirit a few years ago and said 2015 was going to be a magnificent year for my children and I. I stand here in awe of you as I await the manifestation of your promise because You are a covenant keeping God.
But more than that I want to thank You for growth, for Your love and Your provision in my darkest hour. I want to thank You for sending Your angels in the form of spirit filled brothers and sisters in Christ who have covered me in prayer and supported me with words of love and encouragement. Your spirit has shone through them and I have been lifted up and strengthened by their dedication, faith and love.
Thank You for lighting the fire within me to start writing consistently again in the form of this blog. I know You have greater in store and You will get ALL the glory from my story. Thank You Lord. Thank You!
2015, let’s do this!
‘That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ: Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory:’
(1 Peter 1:7-8 KJV)