Yesterday I was asked if I was a lesbian. Yes you’ve read those words correctly. I still think I’m a bit offended, but then I know that when you’re walking the path of righteousness these attacks will come. I don’t believe the person saying it meant me any harm, but I still find myself having to rebuke these labels in the name of Jesus.
You see, this individual, who happens to be male, sees me walking boldly in my single hood. I’m not pulling my hair out over why I don’t have a man, I’m not concerned with that anymore. My singleness doesn’t overwhelm me like it used to, it doesn’t have the power to influence my moods and rob me of my joy, because I am at peace in CHRIST JESUS!!!
Now to the world this notion is unbelievable. So often these days I’m seeing and reading about single women who are so desperate to be in a relationship that they continue to hook up with any man that shows an interest, only to be left devastated when said man, after getting what he wants, usually sex and a few dates, wanders off into the world never to be seen or heard of again. Then the women are left pondering what is wrong with them, why are guys such let downs, where did they go wrong….you went wrong when you put your worth in being in a relationship at any cost, over being whole, healed and satisfied on your own…..
It has been such a hard lesson for me to learn, but I’m so glad that God has kept me deeply hidden within Him. I have not had to do deal with male attention of any sort. This fact alone could give the enemy enough ammunition to destroy me if my hope was placed in the values of this world. The enemy could easily fill my head with thoughts that I’m unattractive, undesirable, unworthy, but I choose to listen to Christ and He tells me I am blessed and highly favoured, fearfully and wonderfully made, loved, cherished, forgiven and redeemed. HALLELUJAH!!
The more I walk in my singleness and the more Jesus makes me whole, the more I see the world seeking to steal what God has placed within me. This is a battle, but I’m so thankful that the Lord continues to hold me close to Himself and I continue to chase after Him. People may try to label me or see me as peculiar because I follow the principles of my GOD, but I do not care about what they think. In my ignorance, I followed the ways of the world and all I was repaid with was fear, anxiety, depression, darkness and death. Following Christ and obeying His plans for my life has given me a freedom I never knew was possible.
Here I stand, single and celibate for 5 years and everyday He continues to pour into me His peace, His wholeness , His healing. Because of Jesus I do not fear the future, instead I am expectant. Thank You King Yahweh!