Slowly I am learning how to take all my troubles to The One who holds the answers. It has not been easy and I still find it a very hard principle to grasp, but as I begin to cast all my cares upon Him, He in return is rewarding me with His promise of peace. He is so faithful.
There are still times when I really struggle with my circumstances. Take yesterday for instance, my children came home from spending the afternoon and evening with their Dad. Upon their return my youngest daughter went into melt down mode as he turned to leave. She wailed and sobbed her little heart out, pleading for him not to go, of course he had to rush off because he’d left his girlfriend and baby daughter waiting in a shop at the top of the road. This in itself angered me for so many different reasons on so many different levels. Sigh….
I then found myself being drawn into the enemies ploy to beat me up emotionally. I felt fed up, angry, disillusioned, alone, sad. I won’t lie, I cried a bit too, for myself and my children.
I had well and truly been distracted and was throwing myself a pity party.
Now in the past, when I’ve found myself in the midst of this whirlpool of angst, I’d do one of two things. I’d search my mind, running through the list of people I could call and complain to. I needed to be comforted, I needed to be told everything was going to be alright. I wanted to run away from what I was feeling. Or I’d text my ex, telling him how upset he’d left the children and how, as usual, I’d be the one to pick up the pieces while he was off playing ‘happy’ families.
Basically I’d let my flesh rule me.
This time however, I chose to be led by His Spirit and through my tears I quietly spoke to The Father, asking Him to strengthen me, to help me, to take away the pain and the sadness. You see, in Him I know there is peace and joy to be found in abundance. I can not allow myself to stay in a place of hopelessness, when my Jesus died to take those burdens from me. I am on a mission to be the light for my lost ex, for my children, for my family and if I stay in a place of brokenness, then where is my witness? I can never be conquered by my situation when I am seeking out the promises that my God has laid out before me! Hallelujah!!
So, as I quietly offloaded my unhappiness, His peace began to envelop the fragile places in my heart and then The Holy Spirit led me to a TD Jakes sermon on You Tube entitled ‘A Blessed Attitude’ well no one can tell me that my God is not an on time God!!! Glory!! By the time the sermon was finished, my negative thoughts and feelings had been taken captive and cast down in the name of Jesus and I slept like a baby!! To God be the GLORY!!!
It really does take the strength of Jesus to get you through those moments where everything seems to be against you. Turning to humans will never bring true and everlasting peace. Only The Prince of Peace has the power to give true peace.
It is so easy to lash out and spew words of hate and anger when you are being led by your ever changing feelings and not the spirit of God. Words you don’t even mean come rushing out like a flood and the enemy takes great pleasure in using those hurtful words to tear down and cause pain to others. After all his assignment is to kill, steal and destroy is it not?
It is easy for us to do the wrong thing, because the prince of this world, satan and his demons have the power to lead us to destruction, BUT WHEN KING JESUS, reveals His marvellous light to your soul, satan knows he has lost, and while we cling onto the promises of God and press towards the higher calling on our lives, the enemy does everything in his power to make us believe that the battle is in vain!! LIES!!
The strength of our God is truly perfected in our weakness. I can testify!!
My encouragement for you dear friend is stay rooted in The Word of God, keep praying, keep believing, take every issue, no matter how small, to Jesus and see what he will do! Hallelujah!
‘But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.’