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I’m reaching a point in my life where I’m finding it increasingly difficult to find people to do life with. I’ve been saved for almost 6 years now and I’ve yet to find a close knit network of believers to lean on.

In the workplace there’s several Christian women, two of whom I try to pray with on a weekly basis, but our impossible schedules have often made this impossible…sorry Lord.

I have two other close friends at work, one an old school friend who I’ve known for over 27 years. We reconnected after 16 years, at the school we now both work in. Our friendship has not changed from the days when we were 11 years old…we are always mocking one another and finding the smallest things hilarious. She, like me, was a single mother, but that’s where the similarities end…lol, after a few months of singleness, she met her now husband at the school they both worked in at the time and as well as her two boys, they now have a daughter together. Her story gave me much hope in the earlier days of my singleness, but unlike me, she doesn’t have a deep connection with Jesus. From the discussions we’ve had, she seems to view Him as a crutch for the needy. She doesn’t belittle my faith, but since she is in a good place right now, Jesus isn’t on her agenda…from what I gather…

Then there’s my other friend, the one whose Spanish wedding I’m going to (I’m going with my aforementioned friend too, so all three of us will catch up in Spain at some point)….he is funny and a great listener. He also helps me with ‘man stuff’ like checking the oil in my car and pointing me in the right direction for tyres, he has been a God send, but again he doesn’t really believe. His fiancée is a catholic and I believe he’s converting so as to marry her….

I think the point I’m getting at is that I find it hard to do life with people who don’t understand or believe in the things of God…heck I ended a relationship with my children’s father because he threatened to pull me away from The One who saved my soul. Yet here I am going to another country and spending lots of time with people who are looking forward to the ‘all you can drink bar’ at a wedding reception.

After speaking through my concerns to a fellow Christian, she explained that we are called to be the light in the dark, so maybe God can use me in the midst of a situation I deem unfavourable.

To be honest, I find great comfort in being amongst fellow Christians. I have not long overcome some seriously stressful situations in my life that threatened to take me out and I’m still dealing with the aftermath, so when the enemy comes with his lies, I feel at peace knowing that another believer is there to lay hands on me and encourage me to take every thought captive in the name of Jesus…

Maybe I’m being harsh, and my friends aren’t as wild and worldly as I think….

Dear Lord protect me as I navigate these new and unfamiliar waters. You know me, your daughter, You know my hearts desire, You know every need before I even ask. Help me to put all my hope and in trust in You, help me to feel your presence when I am feeling isolated and abandoned. Help me to be the light that You have called me to be for my good and Your glory. Help me to be bold and of good courage. Thank You Father!

“Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the Lord thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest.”

Joshua 1:9 KJV